Crisscrossed Roads

I think I am doomed. Serves me right for wanting too much and not knowing when enough's enogh. A long time ago (hehehe...well...sometime in March), I received a call from the big boss asking that "If you were sent to another site for five weeks, is there anything that will hold you back from accepting the assignment." Well without much thought I replied, "If I were a turtle, it's akin to asking if I would like you to throw me into the river. There nothing else I would have liked to do".
After the schedule has been moved countless times, I was summoned for the first time in the big boss' cube and that was to sign a memoradum of understanding regarding monetary matters involved in the training. So that kept the hope alive. But there was more surprises that day, Within the hour, an even bigger boss summoned me and offered a reports analyst position that will be vacated asap (that meant goodbye to taking in the undeserved yelling and cursing for the rest of my tenure here).
Yes, that had me thinking. But when I had to make a decision, unfortunately I may have made the stupidest one. I was greedy, and embarrassed by being so, I only relayed the message, that I want to take the trip first before accepting the position (if it is still available when I get back).
Now, looking at the status quo, I seemed to have lost both. And I say it again, "serves me right."